Liar Liar...

I never knew just what it was... The sad truth is that we're all liars, every last one of us. You meet people for the first time and while you're talking they'll most likely say "I hate liars, the make me sick." My first thought always is "are you implying that you make yourself sick?" of course they'd never see it that way. We are all liar in the sense that we make so many promises and oaths to one another and then five years later, we might not even still be speaking. That very person that we swore our heart to could be fertilizer for graveyard weeds, and we'd have no clue. Kind of depressing isn't it?

About this old coffee shop... That makes me a liar. I sit here and think of all the promises I've made and knew in my heart that I'd never be able to keep. I told them: I'll always be there for you when you need me. I bet you one of them is probably masturbating to me as I type this. Now I'm not sure about you, but most people would consider them needing me right now, and yet here I am. Then again maybe I'm just wishful thinking, chances are they don't even remember me. All these promises, or rather lies, I knew I would never be able to honor and it didn't bother me as I was saying it to them. After all, that's just what you do. There's only been a few that I've actually truly wanted to keep my promises to. However for what ever circumstances I am unable to, probably because it's physically impossible to keep a promise such as "I'll always be there" because if I die before that person, bam, my promise is broken.

I loved so much... That makes you a liar. I remember when you told me; "I'm afraid of losing you." I remember when I told you; "You won't lose me, I'm afraid of losing you too." I wasn't lying then, and I wouldn't be lying now if I told you that. I'm sure you weren't lying then, but if you said it now, would it be a lie? It pains me to think of the reality of that question. The thing is, humans hate being lied to but we never seem to have much a problem dishing out hypocrisy. Maybe it's the power in telling a lie that draws habitual liars, or rather humans in general, to making such impossible promises. The power of being able to mislead someone, it gives you the power to control that persons thoughts and even actions.

I think it's possible, maybe... "Lies in limbo" these are lies that are the truth when told, but then slowly morph into lies. I suppose in a sense more promises are really just lies in limbo. It could go either way. These, I believe, are the worst. Having something like "I love you" be the truth for maybe five months and then it becoming a lie, is just heartbreaking. The before mentioned "afraid" lie, is in all actuality not a lie, because it could still be the truth. [Then again, I am a wishful thinker]

Until I find further inspiration,

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