Hitting the Ground

I've made up my mind, and the decision has been made, however I still find myself lingering in our long ago forgotten love. I remember when we met at my back fence for the first time, I couldn't stop smiling. I remember when you pushed me onto my bed and went to kiss me, I couldn't stop shaking. I remember when you'd have to leave and I'd never want to let you go, I couldn't stop hugging you. I remember when just being near you made me nervous and self conscious, I couldn't stop staring at you. I remember when you asked me if I wanted to go out with you, my heart nearly exploded from joy. I remember when we skipped school for the first time, I couldn't have been happier.
I can't stop loving you.
I can't help but to think of our relationship and analyze it step by step. Trying to find where we could have possibly went wrong. A part of me just can't seem to figure out how something so wonderful could turn into something so different. I have no clue as to how you really feel, I can only speculate and guess. I'm afraid to ask you because I don't think I'll get my answer. I'm not sure how I feel right now. So I'm going to end this.

Things I Want to Accomplish in Life

This is an ever-growing list:
-Becoming Valedictorian
-Attending the university of my choice.
-Study Abroad to Japan, Europe, Maybe China.
-Learn more than 2 languages (Japanese, Chinese, Spanish, Latin)
-Marry the man of my dreams
-Write a best seller (under an alias)
-Wear a kimono
-Attend a traditional tea ceremony
-Cosplay
-I want to grow up and become a beautiful woman.
-I want to be a photographer and go on a journey of pictures.
-Dance the waltz
-Learn to play the piano
-Touch every sea and ocean
-Have a date on the first snow fall in Seoul, Korea while Strolling down Doldam Street
-Adopt a baby(from all seven continents).
-Hit a police officer with a pimp cane
-Make a difference in someones life